If a person can observe one's actions in everyday life and if one has an awakened sense of justice and understanding, one will find oneself doing something which one had not intended to do, or saying something that one would not like to have said, or behaving so that one asks, "Why was I such a fool"? Sometimes one allows oneself to love someone, to admire someone; it goes on for days for weeks, for months, or years. Then one feels, "Oh, I was wrong," or there comes something that is more attractive; then one is on another road, one does not know where one is nor whom one loves.